My thoughts consume me ... and you are losing me ... willingly

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 02:36:47 GMT

Dear journal,

I hate my dog.

Sincerely,
Dorothy

The end must be near ...

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 20:13:46 GMT

So I am watching my cousins for the day. They are six and seven and I believe that they are the spawns of satan. I was woken up at 10am this morning by Jacob, because aparently I needed to make him breakfast. My aunt and uncle decided to go fix their tire on their car so now I am stuffing the kinds face with popcorn and forcing them to watch the Finding Nemo.

Later tonight I think we are going to see a movie or something ... I'd actually like to nap, but I don't think they would be into that. They have consumed my entire day, but luckily they will be leaving on friday ...

BYE

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 13:39:42 GMT

I don't really have many people on my lj ... so this is basicallly for you Candace!
That's right ... appreciate!

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours--or you SHOULD but you don't have

Wed, 31 May 2006 13:58:54 GMT

Ahh live journal ... how slow the days pass by when you are not around.

I have no idea what that means.

So I went out saturday night and ran into a few people, fun times were had ...

Candace got her wisdom teeth out and we have not seen one another in like 5 days ... I'm having some serious withdraw issues.

I'm going to see the Davinci Code with my mom, Courtney and Julie did not like it, but Melissa and Lindsay did. Hmmmm, I wonder if I will like it.

So Canada's Next Top Model starts tonight, and I must watch it.

Other than that ...

CHOW!

Mon, 15 May 2006 19:17:10 GMT

Grey's Anatomy...you make my heart scream.

I associate with criminals...

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 16:15:14 GMT

So...journal....we meet again.

I had the craziest week ever. On monday I was forced to go back to school after a wonderfully relaxing three weeks off. I stopped doing homework after the first week because I was sure we weren't going back, but alas....here I am.

So Monday was spent freaking out....catching up on all of my homework. Tuesday was filled with classes and Six Feet Under : Season Five!!!! I watched four episodes...and will continue watching more this Tuesday. Tuesday's have now become my unofficial Six Feet Under day.

Wednesday I went to class, then to the eye doctor, then to the car dealership to have my oil changed. Wednesday night I went out with Curtis, Greg, Steve and Courtney. We went to Big Dick's, a bar near the University....we drank ourselves silly. Greg broke into a convienience store and stole candy, Steve tried to molest me.....ewww! Curtis threatened to punch me in the face...then he kissed me and told me he loved me....strange. Courtney was off in her own little world...and talked with her university friends. I had 10 rye & gingers....and then passed out in Curtis's back seat. Greg had to carry me out of the car...and then left me in my garage. I woke up to realize that all the doors were locked...so I had to break into my own house.

I went to bed at 4AM and then woke up for school at 6:30AM....vomit.

After handing in my radio reporting project I went to work....I got home around 7:30....watched the O.C. and then I slept until 7AM the next morning. It was an interesting week...

I have decided that I am not drinking until school is over...

The Death Cab concert is coming up quite quickly and I'm pretty excited.....
I'm in my HTML class right now...we are literally doing nothing...

I've been in class for 15 minutes.....staring at a computer screen...
I'm really starting to dislike this program....

I don't really have much more to say...
except that Candace suffers from drinking and dialing....
awesome.

CHOW!

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 04:22:24 GMT

Hello friends...

This weekend was soo great, but also so bad. I got to hang out with my friends.....met Daniel Victor...stepped on his foot...stared blankly into his eyes...possibly creeped him out.

So my night began at the Chubby Pickle. I've never been there before...it wasn't terrible, the music was pretty descent but a little too loud for my taste. After many cheap drinks we headed to the Loop...and by we I mean Courtney, Marisa, Mike, Bridgette and Corey. The Loop was pretty packed. I saw Daniel...sooooo hot. You know the rest.....it involves my foot...and his.

In other news...the college has been on strike for a week.....and now I am on March Break...I have soo much homework and I haven't started any of it...ohh well.

I just bought my tickets to Wicked for October....it cost more than I would like to share....oh well...it's a weekend away with me mum! I never thought I would be excited to hang out with my mom....man I am so cool right now.

Okay well....nothing else is new..so this is where I will leave you.

CHOW

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 18:07:33 GMT

Class is now.....

HTML is draining my mind.....nothing is left behind....
Ha...that rhymed...I should be a poet....

Anywho...I find myself sitting in class thinking about an old friend...who I no longer talk to. I miss her sometimes, but I don't think our friendship could ever be the same. Maybe when she comes home for the summer we could spend sometime together, or atleast have a conversation...that would be a step up.

I know she is stubborn, but then again so am I....who knows, maybe I won't try at all.

Well.....school sucks...except that my teachers might me going on strike....that would be nice...two weeks of freedom for my mind. Well freedom from school work...their is no escaping the madness that always lurks.

I have no idea what I am writing....
Goodbye...

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 13:44:10 GMT

Here's to the last days of Coldplay.....Chris Martin....you are clealy to wonderful to not be Coldplay.....he is obviously a big fat liar!

Fiona Apple is the craziest lady I have ever seen. I think at one part in the show she was actually fighting with herself....and she was wearing a floral print moo-moo......crazy!

The show was amazing.....yellow baloons did not disappoint...and Chris Martin went crazy and destroyed them with his guitar....gold sparkles everywhere.....

I got some pretty awesome pictures.....perhaps I will show you someday.....

CHOW!

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 18:14:34 GMT

Today is February 20, 2006.

I am currently in class...my HTML class....sitting next to Marisa.....she is leaving me....abandoning me.....I will have to make new friends....and I don't really make new friends....

So....next year around this time.....I will be sitting by myself....crying....

I am learning about percentage points....scale with an image....or something like that.

I met a new friend on the internet today....his name is papa m....or peanuts....whatever you prefer to call him......Marisa made fun of him....and now our friendship is over...no more papa m.

Marisa believes that she made fun of papa m.....because she was secretly in love with him...and attempted to push him away....and succeeded.

LAME!!!

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 15:25:35 GMT

Exams are done biotches!!!

And thats about it....

Bye!

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 01:20:10 GMT

So this weekend has been the worst weekend I have ever had.

My friend came home for the weekend....I was pretty excited because I haven't seen her in awhile, and well things didn't go as I had imagined. She ended up getting upset and leaving....and I worried about her all night. I was going to drive her home, but I was out for someone's birthday and I had three other people in the car besides her. So I was put in quite the pickle, I'm not sure if what I did was right, but I made my decision.

I called her on Sunday to make sure she was okay, but she was sleeping...and I don't think I'm going to call back. I'm done.....with this mess.....friendship shouldn't be this difficult...and I'm not sure why it became so difficult. Neither one of us has changed that much, but I guess that doesn't matter.....maybe that was the problem...things should matter.

I don't know where this leaves us......it makes me sad though.

Thats all I have to say about that....

Tim Burton.....mmm

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 14:24:24 GMT

The Pin Cushion Queen
Life isn't easy
for the Pin Cushion Queen.
When she sits alone on her throne
Pins push through her spleen.

Melonhead
There once was a morose melonhead,
who sat there all day
and wished he were dead.

But you should be careful
about the things that you wish.
Because the last thing he heard
was a deafening squish.

Stick Boy and Mach Girl In Love
Stick Boy liked Match Girl,
He liked her a lot.
He liked her cute figure,
he thought she was hot.

But could a flame ever burn
for a match and a stick?
It did quite literally;
he burned up quick

I couldn't get the pictures...so if you want to see them go to
http://homepage.tinet.ie/~sebulbac/burton/home.html

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 21:10:08 GMT

Okay....so right now I am at work with Meaghan.....not really enjoying myself. My brother Matt came in to visit me at work.....rented a game.....pinched me....and then left. That was pretty much the highlight of my day, when my brother came to visit me.

My mom has a bunch of people from work over...they are sitting in our backyard drinking and eating. I don't really like any of them....they are bankers....then again I myself am a banker. I don't think I am the average banker.....always putting on a happy face for the customer.

Oh well....I guess I should get back to work....

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 15:34:01 GMT

Alright crazy Live Journal readers.....whoa!

The comment in my last journal "keeping a receit for the friends that you buy," wasn't directed towards anyone. They're song lyrics from a song I was listening to at the time. If you thought it was about you.....ask me and I'll tell you! It's that simple......

I hope the tears don't stain the world that waits outside....

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 02:38:34 GMT

I don't really have anything interesting to say.....so I am going to ramble on about the recent events in my life. So far it is turning out to be a pretty good summer. I have been trying to do the whole "these are the greatest years of my life" living. I don't really know exactly what that means....but if it's what I have been doing....its kind of fun. I've been hanging out with my two lady friends (Jacqueline and Candace) alot....fun times there!

Also.....summer concerts are my favourite so I have been trying to get alot of those in. I went to the 89x Birthday Bash....and saw one of my favourite bands.....Motion City Soundtrack...woo hoo! They're grrrrreat! My latest concert was Oasis on the 18th of June. They were amasing.....really amasing. I wish I could describe the night to you, but I feel I would not do it any justice. I was forced to sit next to the most disguisting man, who spit like a maniac....but yet that did not ruin my night. I had a woman shake her arms like jello in front of my face and step on my feet as she attempted to dance.....but still, my night was not ruined. I ran into some people who I used to loath in highschool....but still, a great night was had!

My next concert is Edgefest with Candace and her friends from school. I am looking forward to seeing the bands, but mostly I am excited to get away from this place....even if it is only for a few days. I am annoyed with my family and their craziness.....so next weekend will be family, and stress free....finally!

On a pleasant note I went to see "The Perfect Man" with Candace tonight. I think we both enjoyed it, however we may have been a little bias. She was madly in love with the guy who steals Hilary Duff's heart.....and you know me....anything with Chris Noth is good in my mind. Their was one line in the movie that caught our interest, "Love is like a friendship on fire." I wonder if that is what love is really like....I guess I'll find out one day, but for now I think I will stick with the fire-free friendship.

Oh by the way......I hope you keep a receit for the friends that you buy.
It will come in handy one day.

Tue, 31 May 2005 21:28:32 GMT

I don't know how to say this any other way...so I will post a journal about it. The 89x Birthday Bash was last night and it was amasing. Courtney ended up replacing someone....and I'm kind of glad that it happened that way. I'm not saying that I don't enjoy spending time with this person...because I do....it is actually the other way around. I guess I'm not entertaining anymore......and I don't want to have to force my friend to hang out with me....so I won't....I'm done trying to work around the new schedule.

Courtney had a blast last night....I thought she might not be into the whole concert scene like Jacqui and I were....but she was all about it. Motion City Soundtrack was scrumtralescent...as usual.....definitely worth the money! 30 Seconds to Mars sucked.....but Jared Leto was fun to look at....Tegan and Sarah were really good too....and funny. "I don't normally tell people I love them the first time I meet them....but I'm sure your very nice....and I'm sure your mother loves you." Hilarious......good times were had...I was kicked in the eye though.....that was a little rough...thought I might end up with a black eye.....but I think I'm in the clear.

After the concert we were all pretty hungry so we went to Papa Cheney's for some nachos and Zuchinni sticks.....and glare at hot Steve....mmmm.

Overall it was a fun evening.....I think just hanging out with my friends was the best part of the night....their was no tension.....no issues....no drama....it was nice.....woo hoo to summer!

whoa....

Sat, 21 May 2005 21:19:11 GMT

So Courntey found the new Imogen cd....downloaded it....and made me a copy....holy christ....it is amasing.
Her song was on the O.C. season finale....and it blows my mind....I think I have listened to it about 7 times....and I love it. The song is called Hide and Seek....by Imogen Heap.

.....

Life is a crazy ride....too bad I keep falling off.

Mon, 16 May 2005 21:57:50 GMT

So this weekend was quite interesting.....

It started off not so good....plans were being changed constantly...I was being interupted from my nap too often...and It was rainy. However, things did end up going as planned. The girls and I went out to Dean Martini's for $3.50 martini's and man....were they delicious. Candace and I became dancing machines...so much so that an old man decided to dance with me. I guess I must be a really good dancer because that old man was really "happy" with my moves.

After about eight martini's and two shots of something....we decided to venture out for some excitement. We ended up at the beach, so Candace could hang out with Ryan. We saw Haley and Katelyn in line...so we decided to wiggle our way in their spot...I swear Mr. Bouncer man....we were in line waiting this entire time....

After dancing for a bit I started to get really tired....and I wanted to leave...that is pretty much all I remember from the evening. I did however noticed some large bruises on my knees.....uh oh! Just kidding....I remember walking into a bench...so I think thats how I got the bruises....or atleast I hope so.

Overall, my weekend freakin' rocked! It's going to be tough to top last weekend....but who knows....I could marry Brandon Boyd next weekend....it better happen!

Wed, 11 May 2005 18:50:40 GMT

Okay...so today is Wednesday. I am supposed to go out tonight with Sarah and her "cool" friends. I'm not sure if I want to go, I don't want to get extremely drunk with people I don't really like. I mean free alcohol....woo wee! Putting up with Aaron and his love child....not so much fun. I'm not quite sure what I am going to do.....

Anywho...yesterday I went out for dinner with Candace and Jacqueline...we went to Moxie's and has delicious drinks and scrumtralescent desert.....dinner wasn't as good though. Candace and I had some kind of sizzling noodles that had a soapy taste. Jacqueline had big noodles on her plate and in her pants. Desert was awesome....it was some kind of Banana/pastry/ice cream/cinamon and sugar deliciouness. Unfortunately....Sean...spilled my ice cream....so he brought me some new ice cream...in a bowl....thanks Sean!

Before we could eat dinner we had to wait for a table...and since we were at that mall.........we decided to use that time to go shopping. I purchased The Shins new cd and also Jakalope for $25! Candace bought Tegan and Sarah's new cd and Damien Rice. I like to call them the "thin as paper" cds....because they were thin....like paper.

After shopping and dinner....we went back to Jacqueline's house and Jamie came over. We watched some of the retarded video's that we made when we were in London. And then Candace and I decided it was time to leave...so we got in my car....noticed a strange smell...laughed...listened to some Jakalope. That pretty much sums up our evening.

It was a good night...I enjoyed spending time with my lady friends...I wish they we going out tonight....but alas....they're not. So I am stuck with 'sup? .... the man in the wife beater .... and the porch jumper. It's going to be an interesting night.

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 17:42:39 GMT

I have a million thoughts running through my mind right now.

I'm searching for a place where I can lay my burdens down.

She tripped on a hole that I'd dug in the soil
To be part of a human garden and I couldn't
Stand in the straight postured sun
But you stood in the mud which came unsoiled
When I came along
You see it's good for nothing, good for nothing
A close look at something
So close
It's too much of not enough
When all we need is just a taste
I strapped myself in for a safe saccharide
Before it started I tried to be anything I saw fit
And it all seemed to fit but you came undone
When I came along
Blind white lies and shallow truth
Broken strings and stolen youth
I've seen too much of not enough but
You came much closer than they had before
You never stop needing
And it's good for nothing

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 02:45:44 GMT

I am quite sad right now....and I have no idea why. I was thinking about how much things have changed in the past year. Personally I hate change, but I think I handled it all really well...until today. I was thinking about all of the friends I have made, lost and kept. And then I thought about the end of the summer....and how they will all be leaving.

I know that I can handle Jacqui and Candace leaving....because it's happened before....but now Jamie is leaving....just thinking about that makes me cry. I will miss him....and I can't tell him that....everytime I try I find that I stop myself. I know that I can't ask him to stay...that would be selfish of me...he needs to get away from me....

I know how it feels to like someone and to think that you can never have them. Watching them day after day...being happy with someone other than you....it's torture.....but I got over the pain without running away to Nova Scotia. I know that their are other factors here....but I don't care.....him leaving is one of the saddest things I will ever experience.

Now I have all summer to think about this dreadful day.....

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 05:11:53 GMT

I'm really annoyed right now.....

At least call me and let me know that I am not worth your time......

I think I deserve that much....

Questions that need no answer.....

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 22:02:01 GMT

WARNING......

If you are reading this, then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is you life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all who claim it? Do you read everthing that you are supposed to read? Do you think everything you are supposed to think...buy what your told you want?

Get off your computer, stop fantasizing about intimate sex with rocks stars and T.V. celebraties, meet a member of the opposite sex, stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job, start a fight, prove your alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become another statistic. You have been warned....

Intersting....no?

Do you want to play a game?

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 15:51:23 GMT

So.....we took Sophie out for her last weekend without her parents. So we wanted to take her to Vermouth for some fancy drinks.....but she didn't show up until ten to eleven. So all of us were already drunk of our asses. I must say martini's are the greatest drinks ever....Tara and I even had a dirty martini...it was delicious!

After all five of us were together....we went to Rush to see Carrie on her birthday....she was so happy to see us. I hate her ex-boyfriend Matt....he is an ass-hat. She kept talking about next weekend and how excited she is to get away......she needs to get drunk and wander the streets of Toronto with me and my lady friends.

After Sarah's dirty ass boyfriend showed up....without Sarah.....and apologized to me about the stuff that went on that one terrible night, he decided to give Tara and I money.....why you ask? Because he is a creep....Tara was telling him that we needed to find guys to buy us drinks.....so then he gave her five dollars...and then later she thanked him for the money and he gave he five more. I think it was hush money so we wouldn't tell Sarah he was touching us...and then dancing with another girl that is supposedly his "best friend." Weird.....I don't know Ian was gender challenged.

After that we Sophie, Tara and I decided to go to the Avalon....I heart the Avalon. Tara met some somewhat attractive thirty year old men....one of which was married....but they were interesting. I enjoyed them.....and their wierd facination with music videos. We then decided to leave for Belle River and the jerk-off cab driver charged us $50 to get back. I have decided that I hate him......

Well that is my night......it was great...Tara and I thought we were going to end up downtown by ourselves....but we managed to do pretty good.....because we are so cool.

CHOW!